Am I lose the battle...

tired....stress and pressure...kini semuanya bersarang kat kepala otak....back to reality..tak ada benda yang akan kita dapat dengan mudah kalau kita tak usaha..its true...tp how can we know that it is enough or not ...bila masanya kita nak berhenti..ok fullstop..setakat ini cukupla usaha ..bila kita boleh jadi sebegitu..berkata dengan mudahnya..aku dah faham..so berhentila belajar...tak tau la..sometimes, I ever felt that... was it worth for me to keep continuing doing this thing... apa akan jadi kalau aku berhenti sekarang..adakah aku akan menyesali di masa depan..tak tau la... kalau la aku diberi kesempatan untuk berada pada satu tahap yang selesa..perkara pertama yang ingin aku lakukan ialah be a humantarian.... i want to travel this world without worries of money and anything that could bother me in  my life...hmmmmmm...when it is going to happen...

When I should thank you...

When you are the one who always be there when no one around..
Someone who could laugh on a stupid joke I create...
Someone who I can hide my smile from keep blooming and shining when you are around
Someone who could make me laugh in any second no matter what is my mood meter..

13.45 % at ease

Akhirnya Medan pertempuran bersama struc dah aku lepasi..sukarnya...hampir habis bulldozer yang aku keluarkan ..tapi malangnya hanya peluru kosong....wahai.....wira2 ku bersabarlah kalian...tinggal beberapa lagi sempadan musuh yang bakal kita redahi...aku tahu kalian pasti bersedih kerana ramai perajurit2 telah terkorban..tp janganlah risah..telah ku suntikkan serum karaoke dalam robot kita ini agar mampu bertahan dengan lebih lama....kk...hahahahahaha
Kadar kematian nampaknya semakin bertambah dan dapat dijangkakan juga fatality static untuk lontaran bom atom, nuclear dan uranium tidak lama lagi pasti menyebabkan ramai lagi yang terkorban... Kita ucapkan selamat tinggal kepada neuron dan proton structure yang banyak berkorban...kalau aku mempunyai kuasa tambahan, ingin  ku pulihkan kalian..tapi langkah harus diteruskan juga agar kita berjaya melepasi segala sempadan dan peroleh kemenangan walaupun hanya sekadar lepas....

Bilangan mangsa perajurit gugur:

Jeneral am sederhana  -3
Sarjan-4
Koperal - 10
Sisipan seterusnya akan disertakan bersama dalam berita mutakhir minggu depan....huhuhhuuhhuhhuhuuh...
berjuang untuk terus hidup..chaiyo....






  

1 % at ease

Walaupun baru paper CTU yang dah lepas, tp at least rasa lega juga la...
Askar2 barisan depan walaupun ada yang tercedera masih mampu lagi bertahan..kena bagi suntikan kaffein cikit malam ini untuk menguatkan tenaga zahir dan batin..hahaahahahahaha....tunggu esok lagi la ...apa yang pasti.... sasaran untuk askar2 tentera kecil untuk terkorban amatlah besar sekali...tp takpa..general2 tertinggi akan aku turunkan pada straight 3 killer ( 4/5 - 9/5) dan untuk kertas yang terakhir, akan ku turunkan barisan wirawati2 yang telah menjadi balu akibat pemergian General yang bakal terkorban pada straight 3 itu.....apa yang aku harapkan kepada barisan neutron, proton di dalam otak ini merangkap.. general...panglima dan pendekar tertinggi...bertahanla kalian untuk terus hidup...ok......kalau ada miracle itu...adala....kita lihatla apa yang terjadi berikutnya.... (^,^)..saya pembela nasib bangsa akan membawakan berita mutakhir untuk anda dr masa ke semasa ok....peace no war.....hahahahahaha....INI MERUPAKAN ILUSTRASI DAN KADAR RAMALAN MANGSA2 PEPERANGAN FINAL EXAM....huhuhhuhuhuh..hope I can go through another tidal wave...hukhuikhukih...komen anda amatla dihargai...huhuhu xoxoxoxoxox

Friends vs Hatred

Friends....
Someone that I could think less but I still want you..
Someone that I could left behind but without you Im losing myself....
Someone that I want to hide my tears behind my shadow...but you still can trace it with my faking smile...
There nothing more that I could give you in this wide world but you will always say its ok...
Once you here around me ,sometimes I could not realize your existence but once youre gone, I cannot help but talking bout you 24 hours...
Friend.. someone that I really want to keep forever in deep down my heart ...

Hatred...
All about you is so damn plastic..
The more I facing your face, the more bad my day gonna be...
Even the smell of  your lousy fragrance I hate the most and even the sound of your footstep .. I could heard it a million path away...that showing how much I hate your aura.....
And once I do not like you....it is so damn hard for me to forgive you ....

My Bad

I hate to shout it out..but ..this is the truth....
I lost my track right now eventhough the final examination just around the corner...
Im not in a good mood rite since everything is so not started yet and with the problem keep coming around....its really made me look pathetic rite now...
huhuhuhuhhuhhuhh....penatnya.....bencinya.....aaarrrgggghhhhhh
everything is up and downs rite and i really hate to control it anymore....just let it be...was it the best way ..i dunno either.....

Was that enough?

It is always be a dream of mine to be an achiever in no matter what I wanna do in the future... to tell the fact, seriously there never be even a tiny bit in my mind that I want to be an engineer.. though the job seems great by the name itself.. engineer....I think that, that profession does not suit me at all and rite now im dragging myself everyday to go to the class ( no tardy in record) and learn something bout that kind of thing..blah...blah..blah...
eventhough it is so damn hard to like something that we never want to ... but i still trying no matter what...the thing that matter rite now is that I wanna past this course and enable doin well in my job...was that enough?
i dunno....
Sebenarnya.. apa yang best tentang engineering nie.. ntahla..belajar bagai nak putus urat pun masih juak tak paham2.... and the minister itself.. force kita belajar semua benda macam la kita nie nak membina bangunan di Marikh ....hmmm im start talking nonsense.. tp memang betul pun ...
k la ..thats oll...mata pun dh ngantuk tok..tak ada idea nak cakap apa......Masma pun tak paham gik ...

Price Tag

Hasil nukilan my buddies lineker....the main vocalist Mahmud Omar, cameramen Syahiril n Ndoy....Such a poor video.. dahla ada sound backgroud yang tak di edit..hahahah

22

Oh gosh, I am 22 years old this year, can you believe that.. hahaha...a happy and single 22 years old..

Do you know that, some sort of people have a list in their life before they doing something...and they will have a goal which they would like to aim... Me, I dunno.. I do make a List which I hope that I could accomplish it before I get to that AGEING stage...hahaha

Rite now, Im pursuing my bachelor in this local University in my country which is UiTM, a low cost budget university which produce a great capacity of students and I dunno whether I could get a job later since there will be lots of competition out there.. kan bagus kalau dapat hidup zaman 70s or 60s..whereby , kalau kita enable to excellent in our study, the Goverment will send us to oversea and cover all of our living cost there... Actualy, I really want to study there...bestnya, kan best kalau dapat pergi tempat yang ada 4 season...tak kisah pun kalau setakat pegi Korea sekalipun.. as long I can get my butt of from this place... hmhmhm

My Memorablia

It is our first girl nite out to KLCC live Concert..it was great though plus it is free and having such a wonderful time meeting with the celebrity from outside the country..especially Wonder Girl ...though im not such a great fan of them.....

great and so much damn fun experience ...hahahaha luv you guys...hope this piece can be a great memorabliafor all of us...something which we could share later......

1. (first pic on the left)  walaupun hujan lebat sekalipun, masih kita redahi kerana konsert free... thanx to shafa for the great advice..the rain coat only cost us Rm 2.80 if we bought 2....

2. (2nd pic on the left) we are at the concert ...though hv to wait for the next 2 hours for the performance to start...and the rain keep pouring heavily...hahaha happy time ...me, fara and shafa...line the one whose taken the pic

3. (3rd pic on the left) we go for makan2 before going back to uiTm... masih lagi mengantuk that time hahaha...but still have a luxurious breakfast at...i forgot th place ...but seriously it is the best....so damn worth it

4.(1st pic on right) sempat lagi taking pic at klcc ..... tak sempat nak pegi petrosains..but we do take a real model of F1 when we're there... cuma tak berkesempatan riding on it cuma dapat taking  picture since we have to buy stuff aroud rm 100 to ride on that...huhuhuhhuhu..wish i could have more money that time...

5. last pic..line was praying for japan...in case when im old and im reading this blog..actually this is the time when the nuclear reactor in japan was broke down which cause lots and lots of fatality... sending my condolense to their relatives...we keep praying then and hope that lots more will survive and get rid from the trauma..ya....Amen

Love

1. my parents and God of course....
2. my cats
3. i love justin long for the way he laugh..gosh he is so damn cute
4. karaoke...i will sing evanescense ... bring me to life whenever i went to karaoke bang...
5. my novels
6. my niece and nephew...
7. my laptop..this is the most gadget that i travel..... hp is the last thing that i concern
8. Aerosmith, berlin , i was an old school girl who always love the oldees song...
9. im not looking for a gorgeous guy.. but i will love a smart, devoted, and responsible ...
10. my colleague... joe, cdah, farah, fae, sue , shafa, phan.....and lots of them....a dudas that i hope i can treasure more
11. my fav actor is always and gonna be sean penn.... i am sam...

List

this is a list that hope i can accomplish before i turn out 30.... 8 years to go
1. Have my own car... let it be Nissan please..wait till i have more money..but as a starter... viva pun ok la
2. Loose my weight..hahahahahaha
3. I hope that I can further my study to other country except Malaysia.. please though its only for a couple of month  
4. Have my own home theather..
5. Wanna install the greatest wireless connection in  my house so that i can download load of things
6. Meet someone special..n getting married.. i dunno... and have a baby for sure
7. House I guess.. if i still do not dated any men at that time...
8.Travel with my best friends to some country which their language i dont understand at all...hahahahha