I am not a perfect person . Well all people do .. Don't we? . There is a time I have to force myself on doing something since I want everything to look perfect for the sake of my eye. People secretly says that I am to hard to resist. Then, I try to loose the 'strict line' in the works that I do especially when it involves group work. Well then, they quite OK with it .There's a new lesson that I learn from that, I have to believe that others can do their job well too. Indeed, it is lot easier now and I don't have to bother myself all the time to check and auditing for them. Grade never be the focus point of everything in our life.. it is the way we communicate with people.. day by day since you have to live with this people. The best thing in life is that you know more people and get to know whats within their heart . I do regret sometimes.. in the way Im treating people before. I can be quite as asshole sometimes especially when dealing with assignment and laboratory work or anything .. It is time for me to change ... I have to criticize less since people hate to hear other talk bad about what they do ..
And till this day come by .. as usual when it comes to lab job .. we have to do the job as it was assigned .. As usually, I am the one who assigned for it ( minus 1, again the Queen B). Well dont misunderstood bout that... Usually I will assigned the job fairly .. all of us must do the job from scale 1- 10 .. so nobody will get the easiest task every week . Sometimes, they will send their job back to me after have completed it so that I could check ( minus 1, again the Queen B + autocracy). I do check and sometimes have to demolish their job so that it would be perfect according to my standard . (minus 1, again the Queen B).. there is a time back then .. I have to change all their word almost like 80%... (pheeewww.... -1).
Till one day someone that I know spoke out, and said .. ' i give a lot if burden to Him/Her ' . I never got that electric shock statement before.. The BADASS me will say , 'Hello.. I am the one who helping you to do with that stuff, and how on earth could you say that to me .. Just because I ask you to correct a few term' . But then .. thanx God at least I can control it this time .. and said... ' Then next time dont send it to me .. just do it by your own ..' But since he kept saying that I did give a lot of burden to him.. I try to play it cool here .. then I check it again .. well the fault is mine .. actually he/she did copy the previous job that I corrected .. yeah .. it is my fault then for not checking it earlier ... It is a normal thing that you do forget about something but when it in my case ... it can never be forgiven .. May be I was to harsh sometimes .. and do hurt people most of the time , so when they cant take it ,finally it is speak out in a indirect way .. Like Today !!!
So.. for my groupmate .. sometimes I never realize how bad I am treating you .. I am sorry then .. I hope it will never be happen again in the future time. The clock is keep ticking and we never knew when we are going to meet again after graduation.
