I am not a good lover

   2 days left and I will be 24 years .. and yet I am still proudly holding the title bachelor for life . Its not that I am not trying to find someone but I always wanna wait till the right time. I am not a sweet talker like other girls and for sure I am not that cute to grab any guys attention at the very first place .. Dun worry, whether I am on or off my specs ... there will be no fairy angels coming or any sparkles appear .. HAHHA .. I am not that obvious and for sure  I try to live in this world safely ... thank god my mama and dad  told me well .. Never go to club or flirting with any randoms guy .. Im totally not good at that .. and I am totally a self independent gurl and about to be a woman .. HAhAH ..I am different for other species i guesss. Well thats why we are born to this world right .. to be different from others .. Hmmmm..
   I always love my life .. and I dont wand any difficulty that I hold in my back become a shadow that people would notice . Well people do have secret right .. Some of them we can share with our close friend and some of them we must keep it to our grave.. Hmmm ok back to the topic
   NOT A GOOD LOVER ?  Y did I say so ..I love to watch romance film .. who dont .. I am a girl for God sake .. Romance Novel .. i dying for it .. everything ... But when it back to reality ...and looking at other couple act romancessly in front of me .. It is quite an awkward for me seriously .. and it  almost make me wanna vomit ... For me romance is something that you should keep it to yourself without telling anybody of show it off to everybody ... post it in the facebook or twitter for example .. gosh i really hate to read those junk .. 'I miss my handsome boy . Every second ticking make me think of you ' and below it at the comment ... whether the girl of boy itself will like the comment .. If you desperately love each over , y dont you 2 lovey dovey doves .. just texting via inbox .. dont you know that by putting that stuff in your own wall actually make people feelll ewww .. if you get what am i saying . Well thats me .. I am not good in expressing my feeling to someone .. Hmmmm so conservative lil fell...