'SPARK'

Since 8 pm till this hour 10 pm .. i watching some video clip bout our former prime minister, Mahathir. Selama ni I did knew that , that guy got sumthing in him.. cuma bila dah tonton balik that clip of him, finally i realize there is a bit short of my thought bout him .. he is not the guy whose got something but he really the awesome leader who think beyond our expectation . there's a quote that he says in the clip which actually got my attention . 'you must be perfect in the things you do if you want to do something good in your life' , though it actually not sound the same as it was in the video clip but actually its quite mean the same . Sekarang ni, actually im quite regretting my life. Yalah.. kita tak mampu menggunakan apa yang ada di depan mata dengan sebaik-baiknya. Segala keluh kesah dan kesusahan dalam kehidupan menjadi satu barrier dalam kehidupan masing-masing to strive for the better result in our life. 

   Atau hanya mungkin because since we are the Y or Z generation , we never think equally as the X does. May be because of what that we have right now, the life that we feel so comfortably live in .. in such a peaceful country as Malaysia, all we think is only bout fun and how to spending money . Kadangkala , terfikir juga saya kenapa tak pernah pun terlintas di dalam pemikiran saya apa akan terjadi sekiranya negara kita kini dilanggar musibah seperti negara-negara lain serantau . Kehidupan mereka hanya mampu mengharapkan sesuatu yang tidak pasti .. Hidup atau mati hanyalah esok atau lusa yang menentukan. We never care bout that.

  So now, I think that it is never be wrong for us to be the perfectionist in what we are trying to do .. Since make things perfect will lead us to be good in our job . And for my dear team mate for those whose actually use to work with me.. sorry then for the standard that im giving to you , for me trying to push all of you . I might sometime be a lil bossy but it is the only way for me to challenge me and you guys to do something good . I hate the way people act in doing their job so 'sambil lewa' . I hate that behaviour, I dun care if you do the job at the last minute' but as long as the job done or the result that you get are great !! therefore, it is actually the starter for us to learn and step up to become a good leader to our life .. may be not to the nation or the group of people but maybe for the better future of our own . Sometimes I really hate to say that this is our time to get matured and start work out in our life since this is the point of our age to start create the new invention of our life .

 

'RUN'

Tak sabar gik rasanya mok grad and dapat kerja .. so that i seriously can run away from this place, this situation and so lots of thing .. so what call me a runner. Sorry for doing that .. right now.. benda paling penting that i should do is ... my freedom .. hate of being someone who have to sacrifice the thing that i love.

Intern

A month almost have been passed .. there's so much fun thing happened during this period .. my internship .. at first i never tot that it will be this great .. meet new people and learn lots of lots new thing ... hahahaha .... kind of fun you know ... thanx god at least tak la jumpa colleague yang suka buli2 orang .. ok la .. its so much fun here . and everyday .. cant wait to be here .. i mean do some work of course la ..
   The first day of my internship.. not so great la .. well since i am so new wif the place and beside i am not  originality from kch .. so at first all of the things were so damn hard ... never tot that i will go to my work place wif the 'mat rempit' style .. hahahaha ...habis la my hair .. forget bout that la ..a few weeks then .. there is actually bad incident happened at the area nearby my office ... which specifically mean .. next to my office , this dude get shot using a shot gun .. so great exposure for me at this fragile age ..at first of coz la .. traumadized .. hahaha ... then well i able to overcome that feeling ..

Its not that i Hate u so

People.. do you ever have a feeling whereby you actually not hate the people but you r not comfortable when they around ... well that dilemma actually happen to me for this whole semester.. nothing problem happening exactly... cuma feel awkward with each other.. kadangkala.. rasa macam i dunno, feel that that person dont like me .. well maybe im not the perfect person and sometimes or may b all the time i always hurt people around me .. tp selalunya memang kita akan tahu kan kalau kita ada buat salah dengan that person .. but with this person.. im totally blackout.. i dunno what to say.. so damn hard to deal ... dari pada tak ada rasa apa2 ..bley pulak rasa menyampah ..hmhmmh

ENVY

There is still another year left for me in pursuing my study .. tak sabarnya nak habis, its not that i dun want to further my study anymore.. but you know.. lots of problem appear recently, and ekonomi family juga tak menyokong untuk diriku sekarang.. penatla kadang kala bila kita seringkali melihat mengapa hanya kita yang terakna melalui semua ini   .. mengapa harus aku yang dipilih .. adakah aku merasakan bahawa semua ii tidak adil .. mungkin kadang kala terdetik juga dalam fikiran ini membicarakan sesuatu yang tidak sepatutnya . hmmm .. bukan aku tidak bersyukur dengan apa yang aku ada .. tapi rasanya kenikmatan bersama keluarga itu belum aku rasa sepenuhnya .. asal balik saja cuti terpaksa pula buat part time ... kalau tak buat, mana la cukup duit nak support belanja sendiri di kampus nanti .. Penat sangat memang aku akui .. di tambah pula dengan praktikal semester ni.. lagila lama aku tak jumpa dengan family ... nak blk masa cuti mid sem and recently dorang baik hati nak bagi cuti time gawai ...pun tak dapat aku balik rasanya .. dengan tiket flight yang almost rm 400 .. mana la aku ada duit nak cover semua .. mmg la my dear father kata nak share sebahagian duit tambang kalau aku nak balik .. tak da beza nya pun .. aku jugak nak kena keluarkan duit yang sebahagian ... kesian pulak dengan orang tua aku tu .. terpaksa jg la tahankan hati tak balik ... envy nya tengok kawan2 yang lain dapat balik jumpa family ...

    Penat, ya sememangnya aku dah penat sekarang ... dengan study, semuanya ... tak sabar rasanya nak menghabiskan semua ini .. tak sabar rasanya aku nak punya duit sendiri .. di saat aku tak perlu lagi mengharapkan duit ibu bapa ... saat aku mampu berdiri dengan sendrinya... belanja berdasarkan kemampuan ku sendiri .. I know that time will come soon ... 

Futsal

It is such a beautiful Sunday .. hhehehe since that I have such a good news to share with .. k just now our batch actually held on one tournament which is futsal game .. and most of the player are among us .. and thank to God at least and finally my major won the tournament .. hehehehe .. so damn happy.. yala , last sem our class only get runner up for this game .. at least we do got some kind of improvement la .. yala kan ..since it is the last game that gonna happen .. cuz some of them thought that maybe next semester will not organize this event anymore cuz yala ..we are so busy preparing for our fyp kan .. but .. so kay la .. at least we win for the last game .. such a great momento i guess.. hahahaha .... walaupun at first i really dont wanna go for this second game since that i was terribly injured last semester.. hehehe if not im might be not share this beautiful momento with my fren .. hahahahahha well so proud to say.. we at last win this last game .. and wanna thanx all of my buddies who are really striving to give us goal.. yala .. me not so helpful i think .. im just the goal keeper .. hehehehehe nice one ..!!!!!!! so full of happy moment ...

Silence is the word

Life is sometimes that we can predict so damn easily .. maybe it is already written that there is no chemistry .. it is a illness or something else ..i dunno .. its not that im hating that person , but dunno why is it always end this way ..